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7th Instalment: The Holiday

Thank you every one for patiently waiting for this, my 7th instalment.

My aim is to inspire & be inspired, to continue to be strong & continue to be confident!
I may be slow at blogging but that is only due to my MS. As with everything, I’ll get there eventually! 


After the massive trauma of loosing our boy ‘Jake’ we had to decide what we were going to do about the caravan holiday we had booked.

Were we to stay at home where the memories would be painful or were we to take a slow drive to collect the caravan and make our way to Somerset?

It really was a horrible decision but after hearing our youngest dog ‘Ollie’ pinning for Jake we thought it would be good for all of us to have a change of scenery.
We felt a little concerned about what people might think of us but it was our decision to make and it turned out to be a holiday full of memories!

As we were newbie hikers with all the correct walking gear we said that we would take it with us so we could do a lot of walking and it would be for Jake!
We took some of his fur with us and left a bit of him in all of his favourite places, this even included the stream that he loved to swim in just outside of the campsite.

We literally walked miles! Even though Porlock was a regular place that we  visited for our holidays we had never actually explored it much on foot before!
It felt like a real adventure for us, we bought some ordnance survey maps of the local area & chose the routes along scenic paths. The shortest walk was around 9 miles!

We certainly made the most of our time away! We even talked about looking at properties there, after all we knew we were definitely selling our house!
We didn’t make any appointments to look at properties but the seed had been sown!

We were about four days into the break and our friend came to join us for the weekend.
Unfortunately he didn’t bring any proper walking gear, so we carried on visiting our favourite areas by car. This was fine by me as a lot of the places we love were a bit too far to walk and by this time I was starting to get a slight limp because of the pain that started in my hip just before our holiday started.

We spent our evenings walking the lanes close to camp, not too far because of my pain and we didn’t need to go far for what we wanted to do!
For one of my birthdays I was given a ‘bat detector’ and an evening course learning all about the different species of Bats and how to use Bat detectors, we even went for a walk to hear the bats if we were lucky to find any!

I am very passionate about nature with Bats being one of my favourite creatures! I find them so fascinating! I can only describe the feeling as a great ‘buzz’ when I see a Bat and hearing them as well is incredible!
My partner was given an extremely powerful touch for her birthday so she could see Bats even from a great distance! We used to laugh about it as it could so easily be used as the bat light for ‘Batman’!
I remember we met a couple on the camp site who came with us on one of our ‘bat walks’ it was so nice to share the experience . The night they came with us was fortunately one of the best nights. They loved the experience with the bats and to learn so much about them!

At the end of the weekend it was time for our friend to go home.
Once he had gone we felt so lost, we didn’t know what to do with ourselves!
The next day we continued with our walks, again using the maps we had brought.
I’m not sure what day it was, all I remember is being half way up a wooded hill when the phone rang!
It was the vets to let us know that Jake’s ashes were ready to collect! Gulp! We weren’t expecting that! We should have!

We turned around and walked straight back to the caravan, packed everything away and left the next day!
We just wanted our boy back!



6th Instalment: In memory of our boy, Jake




Thank you to everyone for patiently waiting for this my 6th instalment!

My aim is to inspire & be inspired, to continue to be strong & continue to be confident!
I may be slow at blogging but that is only due to my MS. As with everything, I’ll get there eventually!

Concentrating so much on my career took my mind off the fact I was waiting for the MRI results for my eye problem. The thought of seeing a neurosurgeon was still very fresh in my mind though!

It was at this exact time of year, four years ago that what I am going to write happened!
I am not telling you all of this as a pity plea, I am sharing this with you as the ‘stress factor’ is relevant.

Our house was still on the market and we were getting a lot of interest buss hadn’t received any offers yet.
Every time someone came to view the property I used to take our two Labrador’s out for a walk.
I had noticed that I was starting to get pain in my right hip and was walking slower than normal. When I say slower I mean that I was probably walking at the same speed as someone else’s ‘fast’.

I loved to walk and the faster I could walk the happier I would be! I was never someone who liked to jog as the jolting was very painful on my Right leg, the one I had broken in 1999. So the next best thing for me, speed walking!

I also noticed that I wasn’t the only one that was much slower and in pain. Our oldest Labrador ‘Jake’ was becoming very weak on his back legs and many times he would just stop.

I always told my partner about what happened when I walked the dogs but the matter of Jake wasn’t a subject that we wanted to discuss!

We had a phone call from our estate agent to let us know that the house we were hoping to buy, the one we were selling our house for, had been taken off the market!
Gutted! That’s the only word to describe how we felt!
It was time to make a decision, take our house off the market or start looking at other houses!
We decided to keep our house on the market and to find another house to fall in love with!

Isn’t selling a house on the list of most stressful things to do!

It was only a few days away from a short caravan holiday we had planned and my partners Birthday. It was time to switch focus yet again, start to pack and prepare for the upcoming week!

That’s the thing with me, I always need something to focus on to take my mind off tough times!

We were really looking forward to the holiday in our little caravan that we bought in 2009. Our usual pitch had been booked at ‘Burrowhayes Camping & Caravan Site’ in West Luccombe, Porlock, Somerset. We used to go there every year with our tent until we got our ‘Alivan’ (caravan) Many a good holiday was spent there with the dogs!


It was on my partners birthday in 2010 (the day before the holiday) that Jake got distinctly worse! He was at the stage where he couldn’t stand without his back legs giving way! Such a sad thing to see when you know there is nothing you can do.

I can’t type much about the next thing that happened because it is still painful 4 years later.

The day that we were supposed to be setting off for our Somerset holiday, the day after the Birthday celebrations was one of the worst days of our lives! It was the day we had to say goodbye to our boy ‘Jake’